Tuesday, 31 January 2012


Have you ever experienced the frustration of not being able to do what you want to do, what you know you can do but aren’t able to. Like wanting to write about a gazillion things for days but can’t. There you are holding a pen with a paper in front of you and all you can do is stare at its blank state while your mind buzzes with a hundred words but you don’t know you to channel them through the pen in your hand. I refer to the traditional pen and paper because that’s the way I write. Writing directly on a computer feels....alien. I’m incredibly old-fashioned in that respect. Anyway, back to the topic. Only, I don’t know what the topic is. All I know is that I’m sitting here, watching people come and go, with music blaring in my ears to keep me awake, and scribbling meaningless sentences.
While I stare at the messy page with useless scribbling and many cut-offs, I get articles from several people, who’ve written with such flawless ease that it’s envious. The frustration is almost spilling now, more because of the fact that I don’t know what’s stopping me.
Writing is my expression. Whatever I feel it comes down on the paper. And now I’m frustrated but I can’t take it out because my pen refuses to ink anything comprehensive. I don’t know what I’ve done above. All I know is that, at the moment, I feel completely useless. And I can’t explain why. Maybe someone’s done black magic on me so I can’t write anymore. Maybe it’s PMS. Or maybe it’s just an infuriating writer’s block.

Wednesday, 4 January 2012

Farewell Cowasjee

Only a few sane people are left amongst us today. People we need most but don't really deserve. These are people who've maintained a straight head in all the chaos and have been telling us to do so too, but alas! we've sworn not to listen to any rational voice. We've turned so ignorant that the voices which persevered for years in the hope that someone might listen to them have lost it and have finally started to give up. Ardeshir Cowasjee became one of them when he announced his retirement on 25th of Dec 2011, expressing his disappointment in the nation at the same time.

I've always been impressed by him, always admired him for some reason. It may be his writing skills, his clear understanding of any issue he wrote upon or his desire to see Jinnah's dream Pakistan. He truly is a pioneer but he's decided to back off before I was capable enough to learn something from him. You have been unjust to me and many others like me Sir by leaving before we even started.

Sometimes I really feel that our generation is an unfortunate one. Whenever we spot someone who can guide us, they back away at once and decide to leave it to us to guide ourselves out of the mess we are in. Why? Why don't they understand that we need a genuine person who can tell us how to solve all the problems surrounding us without any self-interest? Are we that hopeless? This sucks *stomping feet like a stubborn kid while eyes shine with fresh tears*